Heartless?

I don't know why, after all those things that you did.
My heart being crushed so many times.
But in the end, i always forgive you...
I always do.
I can't be angry with you for a long time.
I always end up being the one to give in.

But i think i've reached the point, where i have to decide.
Sometimes, i just wonder if you were worth holding on to.
If i could just let you go...
And start all over back.
Wash you away from my memory.
But what would that make me as a person?
Heartless?
Merciless?
Unreasonable?
Unthoughtful?
Selfish?
My conscience keeps urging me to rid that thought.
Just hold on.
But how long can i hold??